NFL Star Player comes out of the closet…in new book, Football Games!

Football Games tells the story of a gay and closeted professional football player who is fighting against his own internal demons, and the pressure he faces on the home front from his boyfriend of 4 years.  This player must decide, if he will remain a successful and closeted football player, or blaze the trail of being the nation’s first openly gay NFL player.

As he struggles to keep his personal life private, his partner has other desires.  This is the tale of a hidden life style, jealousy, rage and whether or not a young superstar can overcome the challenges of being gay, black and living in the closet.

Recently, professional athletes in other sports have announced that they are openly gay or lesbian.  Professional football has been stigmatized as the most homophobic sport.  It appears to be difficult for some players and fans to seriously support a gay player, assuming he is not masculine or athletic enough.  In Football Games, can our hero change the stereotype?

Football Games is currently available on Kindle.  Paperback will be released soon.

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NBA player, Jason Collins is a proud Black Gay man!

I too am happy and proud that Jason Collins has come out as a Black Gay man. I emphasize his ethnicity because I share it. There is such a social stigma that is attached to black men who are homosexual. Jason has broken through the sexual orientation barrier AND the color barrier, again. His openness will allow a lot of African Americans (specifically African American MEN) to rethink their position and understanding of who and what a homosexual man is. In his interview with Sports Illustrated, he states “I go against the gay stereotype”. He is an aggressive player on defense. This image shatters that misconception that all gay men are soft or effeminate. Not that a more gentle man should be denigrated, however, every gay man does not fit that profile. When we look at television or movies, most male gay characters are a ‘caricature’ of feigned femininity. I know it gets laughs, but as a Black man, I hate when acting roles only portray Black men as criminal, uneducated, inarticulate and the absentee father of multiple children.  None of my Black gay or straight male friends fit either of these stereotypes.  It will be nice to see a public reflection of the masculinity that I and other gay men that I know possess.


In my excitement and celebration over the news of Collins’ coming out, I shared with two of my co-workers. One is a lesbian. The other is the father to a gay son. Me: “Hey, Jason Collins of the Washington Wizards just came out!” Their responses lacked my enthusiasm. Female co-worker: “Oh, that’s nice.” Male Co-worker: “Yeah, that will be big news.” Both spoke rather flatly. Honestly, they kind of deflated my balloon. Then it occurred to me. Although the news is historic, it isn’t mind-boggling or earth shattering. Because there is nothing wrong or special about a person being same sex attracted, the news should be taken in stride. Gay man comes out. No big deal. Maybe as a society, we are growing in tolerance and acceptance.

The Tales of Closet Abuse, part 2

What is the reason for Russell ‘Hollywood’ Simpson to put Kerry Rhodes on blast? 

As a gay man, he should understand the reasons why, Black men specifically, are relegated to the closet – right, wrong or indifferent.  Hollywood claims he is making Rhodes relevant by putting his name out there.  Rhodes is a football player who is a free agent!  A gay scandal is not going to get him a contract!  Stop playing boo!  There is a different motive here.  Kerry Rhodes sexuality IS his own business.  Why is it necessary for Rhodes to publicly acknowledge that he is gay?  How would that validate Russell Simpson if they were no longer together?  B.S.!  Obviously, Rhodes felt comfortable with PDA in certain situations around certain people.  That’s should have been enough.  Friends do hold other friend’s confidences.  Hollywood claims that Rhodes’ teammates were aware of his sexuality.  If so, isn’t that enough?  If these two were in ‘love’ or whatever, why couldn’t that be sufficient, given the climate in professional sports?  Rhodes denying his sexuality, is NOT outing himself.  That’s B.S.!  Rhodes was employed in a heterosexist and homophobic industry.  When we have ignorant comments made by public officials and other NFL players (and the awesome responses to them), it is understandable why Rhodes would keep his sexuality on a need-to-know basis.  Kerry, I support you.  I cannot say that you are gay, because I do not know you.  From the pictures floating around the Internet, I come to a different conclusion.  If, and when you do come out, there are plenty of people out there who will have your back. If you haven’t already, reach out to Brendon Ayanbadejo.

Attempting to ‘Out’ someone is such a public way, is another form of Closet Abuse.  We are locking people in these closets and then ripping the doors off.  Everyone who is around Rhodes or any other professional male athlete has heard, seen and understands the potential impact that a public admission of homosexuality can have on their career.  This pressure to keep their life compartmentalized, forces them to live in a ‘closet’, until the pressure is too great, leading to some disastrous outcome.  It is unfortunate that in these situations, someone else thinks it is their right or responsibility to disclose another’s personal information.  Wrong!  Hollywood knew who Rhodes was when he got into their ‘situation’. 

We know that Rhodes (if he is gay) is not the only gay professional male athlete.  Between statistics and the retired players who have come out, there has to be other active players who are also gay.  And again, there is nothing wrong with that!  One of these players is going to come out.  There will be media hype around it for a while and then it will be as normal as female reporters in the locker room and showers after the games!

The Sad Tales of Closet Abuse and Bullying, part 1.

Another teenager, Nigel Hardy committed suicide.

Nigel Hardy was a cheerleader.  Cheerleading, in the minds of some, is a sport for girls.  Our society is notorious for denigrating and/or objectifying anything feminine.  (Story for another blog post!)  I am not suggesting or implying that Nigel Hardy was a gay youth or in the closet.  However, with the prevaling ignorance in our society, a young man who is forced (his choice is taken away) to hide his sexual orientation is sad but understandable.   If the late Nigel Hardy was indeed gay, there was nothing at all wrong with that fact.  Neither was there anything wrong with his love for cheerleading.  (It is a sport that has significant risk and requires athleticism and strength.  Let someone throw you in the air and you trust they are going to be able to catch you!  Or you be able to catch them as they torpedo toward you.) 

What is wrong is the abuse that he suffered at the hands of bullies.  Bullying is not harmless child’s play.  It was reported that Nigel had just turned 13, placing him in middle school.  As a parent, I understand and remember the social challenges and internal awkwardness that my middle-schoolers experienced.  Any angst is compounded when the teen is trying to understand their sexuality if it falls into the category of gay, bi, trans, queer or alternative.  Sadly, Nigel Hardy took his own life after being suspended from school for fighting.  Supposedly, he was in a fight with someone who had been teasing him.  The specifics were not released, but this is a tragic story that has a familiar tone.  It is what I will call Closet Abuse.  Social pressures and a need or desire to fit into a larger group forces individuals to compartmentalize their lives in such a way that they live in a ‘closet’, until the pressure is too great, leading to some disastrous outcome.

If you agree that this type of ‘closet abuse’ needs to stop, than you can do something.  Use this family’s tragedy and other situations as teachable moments.  Explain to someone close to you, how important it is to offer the same acceptance and respect that they want from others.  Some call it the ‘golden rule’.  I find it to be Godly behavior taught in Matthew 7:12 of the Bible.  “So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.”  Basically, you treat people how you want to be treated.  How hard can it be to do this and teach it to our children?  It may take a conscious effort, but it is not difficult.  As Ghandi said, “be the change you want to see in the world.”  Will you join us?  Let me hear from you.

Eradicate ignorance one word at a time.

The right to marry the same gender and the right to marry another race.

Why is it so hard to see these are two sides of the same human rights coin?

I enjoyed the interview of Brendon Ayanbadejo by Anderson Cooper about him being cut from the Ravens because of his LGBT advocacy (not true!) and the four pro athletes who ‘may’ be coming out in the near future.  Brendon is heterosexual man using his public and professional platform for LGBT advocacy. Anderson is homosexual journalist and talk-show host who does the same thing in a very different manner.  I have such respect for both of them in this regard.  However, the comparison Brendon made between the issue of race in marriage and gender in marriage was so illuminating for me. He made an important historical reference that many of us forget. In some ways, he is a physical manifestation of that reference. 

In 1967, the Supreme Court deemed the illegality of interracial marriage unconstitutional in the case of Loving v. Virginia.  Although both of my parents are African American, it is hard to believe that in the year of my birth (1966), marriage and/or procreation between black and white persons was against the law!  Thankfully, those anti-miscegenation laws were overturned.  Brendon’s handsome face is a reminder that love is love, irrespective of race or gender.  I am glad he is an advocate.  As he stated, someone else took the heat for racial marriage equality in the 1960s.  So his shoulders are broad enough to take heat for LGBT marriage equality.  Yes, Brendon, you definitely have a broad set of shoulders!  I’m glad they are strong enough for the gridiron and the court of public opinion.   Looking forward to following you next season with your new team!

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